Posted by: macahajo | February 20, 2017

what-ifs

“Waiting for the What ifs of life, for what might happen, causes the sturdiest of hearts to be anxious.” – Linda Dillow, Calm My Anxious Heart

Last week, I noticed that a suspicious spot on my face had grown. While it is still smaller than a pencil eraser, I started to get concerned when I noticed a faint bluish tint. I had basil cell carcinoma several years ago. What if this is more serious than that?

So, what to do. I’m in Yaounde, Cameroon. When I think about going to the doctor here, I think about the cleanliness of the facility and tools used, and I question the quality of care I would receive.

I realized that I had two options: I could see the dermatologist in Yaounde that a friend told me about; he saw the doctor for the removal of a fast-growing mole on his back. Or, I could travel to the Mbingo Baptist hospital – a stressful, 9 hour drive away or a short one-hour flight via missionary aviation, SIL Air.

After much consideration and prayer, I decided to go to Mbingo – I know I would get the best possible care there, especially for the location of the spot. And the Lord worked out the details so I could fly this week, and for a very low cost!

1 Peter 5:7 says, “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” I have been reminded by the Lord lately that He doesn’t want me to carry the burdens of my heart. He wants to carry them for me.

In her book, Calm My Anxious Heart, Linda Dillow challenges her readers to create an Anxiety Box… She described how when she worries about something, she takes a small piece of paper and writes down what is causing her anxiety. Then she puts it in her Anxiety Box, as a way to symbolize giving her cares to the Lord. She said, “Every time I see the box, stuffed with my worries, I’m reminded that God is carrying them, not me.”

So, this morning, I wrote a note to the Lord and put it in my worry jar, giving him my worries and my what-ifs. Please pray that I would keep this situation in His hands.

Carried by Him, Cathy Lynn

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Responses

  1. This is Laura and I’ve got you covered (in prayer). Love you very much!

    • Thanks sweet friend for your note and for praying for me. Love & miss you!

  2. Cathy- Thanks for sharing your heart! I struggle so much with anxiety myself, especially when it comes to health related issues. I’m being reminded to give these concerns to the Lord in prayer. Not sure why that’s so hard sometimes, since I’m obviously not in control! I’ll be praying your appointment goes well.

    • Thanks Melisa, for sharing with me about your own struggles and how the Lord is reminding you also to give your worries to Him. It’s a battle sometimes! Thank you for praying for me. Love & Hugs, Cathy

  3. Thinking of you, Cathy. Sending love, hugs and prayers for your good health. Please keep us posted. xox Tina

    On Mon, Feb 20, 2017 at 1:21 PM, African Sand In Our Shoes wrote:

    > macahajo posted: ““Waiting for the What ifs of life, for what might > happen, causes the sturdiest of hearts to be anxious.” – Linda Dillow, Calm > My Anxious Heart Just in the last week, I noticed that a suspicious spot on > my face had grown. While it is still smaller than a ” >

    • Thanks so much, Tina. I will let you know – they said it might take up to two weeks for the biopsy results.

      Love you,
      Cathy

  4. Dearest sweet Cathy, I pray that the growth is absolutely nothing to worry about! I love you 😘 Aunt Carol

    • Hi Aunt Carol, Thank you for your note, and for praying for me. The trip to Mbingo went well, and the surgeon thinks it will be fine. But the pathologist will read the biopsy when he returns from the States next week. I love you! ❤ Cathy


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